Lost Time Memory [Rin Okumura x Reader]

Lost Time Memory:

"[Name]! [NAME]!" I yelled. After returning from Gehenna to retrieve a demons soul, she awkwardly sat on her knees in the room until we realized she was actually unconscious. I waved my hand in front of her face and picked her up, throwing her over my shoulder. With Yukio in tow, we took her to Shura. We quickly ran towards Shura's and I felt [Name]'s breaths become shorter and more labored.

Once we arrived, we knocked the door down and Shura was surprised to see us.

"Look it's the Four Eyed Chicken and his brother. What do you guys need?" She taunted. However at the sight of [Name] she jumped from her seat and pushed us away. She slid two fingers underneath [Name]'s neck and checked her pulse. Shura's face grew increasingly worried by the second and I looked over at Yukio. Stupidly enough, Yukio reached out for my hand and gripped it tightly. I squeezed back and we held each other's hands, awaiting the return of the girl who had changed us.  

In a rushed and sudden manner, [Name] quickly sat up and looked around at her surroundings. I instinctively raced towards her and attacked her with an enormous hug.

"[Name]. My god. You're okay. You're okay. I'm here. We are all here for you. Don't you ever do that again!" I yelled as the tears that were being held back fell from my face. She uncomfortably wrapped her arms around me and something in my chest snapped.

This wasn't the same [Name] I knew to come and love.

"I'm sorry but do I know you?" Her quiet voice echoed. I stood back stunned and Yukio went over to her. He placed a hand on her forehead and she looked at him sweetly. My brother stepped back with a red coating his cheeks and he stammered. [Name] tilted her head to the side and looked at all of us. A parade of tears fell from her soft eyes and I went over to hug her again. Shura placed a hand on my shoulder and brought me back. She shook her head, indicating that I shouldn't hug her. Gritting my teeth and fighting back tears, I listened to Shura and went outside.

I slammed the door and ran until I was out of breath. I ended up in a garden and sat down. I picked up a flower and began playing the childish game everyone knew all to well.

"She loves me."

"She loves me not."

"She loves me."

"She loves me not."

"She loves me."

"She loves me not."

"She loves me."

"She loves me not..."

I tossed the flower and continued receiving the same result. I soon heard my name being shouted and I stood up. Putting on a brave face I realized it was Shiemi who was incredibly worried.

"Rin! We were all worried about you!" She placed a hand on my own and I stared down at her. She blushed and looked away. Slowly she wrapped me in a hug and put her head on my chest.

"I thought I had almost lost you," she whispered softly. Her tears stained my shirt and soon my own tears mixed with hers. I hugged her tightly and saw Yukio, Shura, and [Name] standing there. Yukio and Shura looked relieved but tears prickled at the edges of [Name]'s eyes. If I could take it back I would but what she said after broke me.

"I don't know why I'm crying. I don't even remember or know him. But my heart feels likes it's breaking and I don't know why." She cried. She hugged Yukio tightly and he gently caressed her head. He gave me a disappointed frown and walked away with [Name] in tow. Shura looked from where she was and glared at me. She walked away with her hands in her pockets and I broke off from Shiemi's hug.

"I'm sorry..." I said. I wiped away the tears and refused to allow them to continue falling. I had to put up a brave face with [Name]. I began walking away when Shiemi called after me.

"I'm here if you need me Rin! Just give me a call!" She shouted. Her shoulders sagged and she began walking inside. Shiemi had a minute crush on me but when I looked at [Name] I knew I could never reciprocate the feeling. She sometimes goes out on dates with Yukio but he always shrugs them off. He always says there are more important things than dating at the rank he is at.

I glumly walked back to the dorm and opened it to reveal Yukio and [Name] consoling each other.

"But why Okumura-San!? Why does it hurt!? I don't even remember him and it HURTS!"

"[Last Name]-San! Please! The relationship between Rin and yourself goes much deeper than it seems! It was a delicate and intimate relationship!" He pleaded.

"But I can't remember any of it! I don't remember you or him or anything in between!" She exclaimed. Tears ran down her face and Yukio continually wiped at his face. He was trying to be strong for her as well. I swallowed nervously and sat on my bed. With my eyes closed, a barrage of memories hit me. I squeezed my eyes and realized something that could make me incredibly happy.

I could do this all over again. I could make her fall in love with me. And we could experience it a second time.

With a dorky smile adorned on my face, I grabbed [Name]'s hand and looked into her eyes. Something flickered and she gave me a soft smile.

"Rin is it?" She smiled again and my own smile grew. My heart pounded in my chest and my face flushed with a pink color. She softly took my own hand and interlaced her fingers with my own. I held back a gasp and she looked at it questioningly. Her frustrated look was adorable and I brushed her hair behind her face. She looked up at me with curious eyes and blinked her eyes. She looked down at my lips and then quickly averted her eyes. I laughed and hugged her tightly.  

Alas the moment only lasted a few minutes. For the continuing week, she would be completely lovey-dovey and the next remain completely cold and desolate. It was a few days of this until Yukio revealed what was happening to her.

"Rin."

He placed a hand on my shoulder.

No.

"She's..."

Please no.

"Her memory.."

Yukio...

"She's forgetting..."

Fuck.

"She only has a week."

Fuck this.

"Can't you fix her you idiot!?" I grabbed the collar of his shirt and brought him close. He stared at me with tears in his eyes and gritted his teeth.

"You aren't the only person who cares about her Nii-San!" He angrily shouted. I let him go and he continued.

"She's having an inner struggle with a demon. The demon is much more powerful than her. It's incredible that her body will resist it for as long as she does. Nii-San, she is going to die and the sooner you realize the better you will be." He faltered.

"FUCK YOU!" I shouted. I took the Koma sword from it's resting place and ran up to the roof. I unsheathed it and my flames appeared. Stupid at the age of 15 and blinded by love, I shoved the sword into my chest and dug it in deeply. The sword stuck out from my chest as I had stabbed myself from behind and I screamed in agony and saw my classmates along with Yukio run up to the rooftop. The flames flickered around my feet but no longer circled my body.

"He must have hoped they could reason with me..." I thought to myself. I licked my lips and tasted blood. I looked at my trembling hands and looked at the blood that stained them. I closed my eyes and let the tears flow freely. I felt a figure hug me and felt the pain of the sword embed itself into the figure's frame. The figure groaned and wrapped its arms around me much tighter. As a result of this, the sword pushed forward and I finally opened my eyes. Blood trailing down the sides of her lips and a happy smile was [Name].

"I may not remember anyone... But the fact of the matter is my heart tells me I shouldn't let you die alone. It's telling me that it wouldn't be able to stomach it. And so I've decided to die with you since you have such a strong grip over the remnants of my heart." She smiled and coughed up blood. A mist of red filled the air and she groaned in pain. Everyone stood there shell-shocked and tried helping one way or another.

Bon and Konekomaru began reciting passages of the bible to save our souls and Shiemi was in a frantic argument with Nee. Yukio frantically grabbed at his coat trying to find some tranquilizer of some sort while Izumo argued with her familiars as well.

"[Name]! Please no you can't! Just no!" I yelled at her. She began to tear up and soon the tears mixed in with the blood that stained the sides of her lips and cheeks. She bit her lip harshly and soon a fresh stream of blood came pouring out.

"Rin," She said softly. Her gaze looked at me and her eyes traced my face. She sighed contently and placed her head on my shoulder. I was on my knees and I had her hugged tightly near me. These were our last moments. I felt the strength slowly began to sap away and the pain I had felt earlier has beginning to disappear. She lifted her head to my ear and softly whispered into it with her voice.

"Rin? My heart is saying something. It's telling me that I love you Rin." She whispered into my ear softly. She groaned softly and her lips slid from my ear. She closed her eyes once more and tried leaning in for a kiss. With the remaining strength she had, she gave me the softest kiss before her head dropped in front of me.

I went berserk.

"[Name]!? No fuck this! [Name]! Wake up! Wake up!" I screamed. With a rush of sudden adrenaline I felt my wounds beginning to close up. I looked up at me and saw Shiemi had used Nee to begin helping me heal. I screamed and thrashed my head wanting to be dead as well.

I never envisioned myself wishing for death. Yukio ran towards me and let out a shaky breath.

"Nii-San..." He said. He was about to pull her off of me when I quickly snatched the loaded extra gun he had on his belt buckle. I detected a trace of gunpowder and realized this was it.

"NII-!"

BANG 

I felt the hot spray of liquid hit the surrounding area and my lifeless body clung to [Name]'s.

I had ended my life. I willed myself to look at the aftermath and soon regretted it. Everyone we knew... Was covered in my blood. Their faces sketched with a horrified look at the fact that I had killed myself in front of their eyes and they couldn't have done anything to stop me.

"NII-SAN!" Yukio yelled. He began sobbing and pulled the sword out. He placed it back in the holder and pulled it out. He was trying to bring me back to life by drawing and returning the Koma sword. His breaths were shaky and he began to hyperventilate. Tears streamed down his face and he began to try to give me CPR.

"Nii-San! Nii-San! Wake up please! Nii-SAN!" He exclaimed over and over again.

"Why would you make me break my own promise!? Why wouldn't you let me protect you!? I became all of this for you! Why Nii-San WHY!?" He shouted angrily. He sat near my corpse and cried over it.

"Yuki-kun?" Shiemi said softly.

Everyone crowded around Yukio and held on to each other. They began crying softly and tried consoling one another. After a while, their crying was heard and our bodies were taken away.

--- A Few Months Later ---

"Here there Nii-San. Good afternoon [Name]-chan. How are you guys doing? Everyone is better. Although for the most part, they are a little more paranoid about demons now. They are more wary to trust them now. I brought you guys some sweets. I hope you enjoy them. I tried making them myself but I ended up burning the batch... so as a result the entire class pitched in. So I guess they are from all of us. I love you both. May Peace be with you." A sleepy megane figure said. His head drooped and he quickly picked himself back up.

"I am incredibly sorry!" He instantly bowed.

"Oh Nii-San I found this note when they cleaned out your stuff. I think I'll just leave it here as well. I'm sorry I broke my promise. And as a result Kuro has become my familiar. Ever since my demonic powers were awakened, I am able to hear him. He misses you and Shiro immensely and because of that and wants to protect me as to not lose someone else," Yukio faltered.

The Note: "Hey there little bro. Come back safe from the mission. I'll be with [Name] if you need me! "

Well, I'm glad for Kuro.  

"Shiemi has told me her feelings for her. But I don't think I'll be able to reciprocate them. I find it difficult to love her after everything that has happened. Maybe one day in the future I will be able to love her. But for now I have Kuro and I can always talk to you Nii-San."

"Nii-San..."

"[Name]-chan..."

"I love you..."

The megane walked away with tears in his eyes. He walked back to his lonely apartment and brewed himself a cup of tea. Upon habit, he made all too much and set the two extra cups on either side of the kotatsu. He opened up the album that lay in front of him and groaned. His chest was heavy with remorse and he decided to get a fresh breath of air. He slid the balcony door open and the cold wind blew through his clothes.

He looked up at the starts and saw the Orion constellation. He laughed at the warrior constellation which reminded him of his warrior brother. He was about to go back inside when something at the edge of his glasses caught his eye. He quickly swept his eyes to the right and saw a barrage of shooting stars. He wiped another tear and for the first time smiled. The wish he has just granted had been alive and well all along.

"My wish is for Nii-San to be irrevocably and incredibly in love with [Name] and to be in much happier place where he isn't judged."

Another small smile crept onto the brown-haired boy's face and he let out a small burst of laughter. He soon faced his sliding door and quickly whipped his face back to the sky. When looking at Orion, he failed to see the two stars that were incredibly close and shining with everything they had. He looked at both of the stars and heard something in his head click.

"Just to let you know, the old fart's smiling down at you with a thumbs up by his side."

The young boy began to cry again and wiped away the joyous tears.

"Nii... San... no... that's not right... I shouldn't call you that..." The megane began to say and soon gained the confidence to finish his thought.

"RIN!"